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Name: Jeff Country: United States State: Vermont Metro: Burlington Gender: Male
Interests: God, sarcasm, witty repartee, friends with a sense of humor, music, loitering, and timely diversions. Expertise: Writing stories, spending hours at bookstores listening to music and reading, and enjoying a good cup of coffee. Occupation: Temp Industry: Various
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| Couple of quick updates. I usually don't talk about my job hunt here (after a couple years of hearing "How's the job search?" from all corners, it would get old for you too), but what the hell? Gotta bend the rules sometimes to keep life interesting.
1. After floating directionlessly for too long to rehash, I've finally found a career focus - human resources. Methinks it would be a great field to get into - working with people all day, being a part of a company's inner workings, good career growth, etc. 2. I met a few people at a volunteer night at the church I'm attending now.* One of them, after maybe ten minutes of conversation, told me that she thought I would be really good at firing people because I'm really nice and compassionate. I laughed, caught my breath, laughed again, and thought that she had a good point. I'm going to talk to someone at a non-profit tomorrow (Weds.) morning about volunteering a couple days a week in HR, but I'm probably not going to tell her what my new acquaintance said. Well, sort of. Yes to the "nice, compassionate" part; no to the "good at firing people" part. Even though it was really funny.
*Things at church are going pretty well so far; I'm getting plugged into a couple of missional communities and getting to know people a bit. So far, I love that this church puts a priority on loving people and building them up; and I really love that people can talk with each other and be genuine and not start the conversation with "So, what do you do?" I'd even like to begin tithing sometime soon (praise God that His grace also covers unpaid tithes), BUT my one condition is that it needs to be my spiritual home first. Not just that place with the steeple where I go every Sunday at 7, but that place where I know and love people, and am known and loved as well. Swear to Allah, if there's ever a Redeemer party where no one was allowed to talk about work (or job hunting), you'd have a hundred people quietly drinking martinis and picking their hangnails. On the other hand, I'm still loving New York, still getting involved in things, still keeping incredibly busy, and enjoying every minute of it.
Well, I'm working a showtonight, so I should get a coffee refill and hit the rails. Stay classy, Xanga. | | |
| I have a hard time with Christian community, a love-hate relationship with it, you might say. It may please the heart of Christ to see brothers and sisters fellowshipping harmoniously, but it rends mine with anxiety. Thoughts that there won't be room at the inn for me, that I somehow won't measure up, that I might be quietly tolerated but never included, memories of when just that has happened; such things like that. I'm not sure why I paused Flash Forward long enough to write this, but I got the urge to get it out - and followed it. But don't be mistaken; this isn't being written while ridden with anxiety, it's more hopeful than it sounds. I've returned from Vermont (whenever I hear of New York's irreligiousness, I think back to my seven months in Burlington, and take it with a grain of salt), left Redeemer for good (not having a flashy job, relative affluence, and extensive knowledge of CS Lewis put one hell of a damper on my social life), started going to a new church, and have begun volunteering. So far so good with the new church; relationships seem to run deeper, and there's more of a priority on people sharing their lives with each other and actually practicing what we preach. But I still wonder, somewhere in the basement of my thinking, whether or not this applies to me as well, or if I'll be run off on a rail once I start to take some hesitant steps forward. Who knows? God willing, it will apply to me as well. And yes, I'm pursuing volunteer activities. After an interesting interview at an East Village theater yesterday, I brainstormed a few criteria for finding the best-suited kinds of things, as I like to call them, the Five Wills: 1. Will this give me a chance to practice my existing skills and acquire new ones? 2. Will this introduce me to new and interesting things? 3. Will I work with my peers? (people around my age - it's no fun being the youngest one there) 4. Will I meet new people, and build relationships as I go? 5. Will this look good on my resume?
That's what I'm up to these days. Back to Flash Forward.
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| "All I have to do to blend in is to not wear a suit!" I retorted as I got out of Rebecca's car behind the Kehoe Administration Building. It was my first time back on the Plattsburgh State campus, where the best years of my life had taken place, since 2007, and I was going to take full advantage. I walked from end to end of campus, past the dorms, the student center, the academic buildings, and retraced my old steps; from the dining hall to my dorm, from my dorm to the student center, etc. All the buildings looked the same as they had when I graduated in 2004 (except for a rambling old Catholic church that was recently replaced by a ginormous privately-run dorm - no loss; the building was only used for Tuesday evening bingo), with a few minor alterations - the campus bookstore had a new entrance, and part of the Angell Center had construction going on. Banks Hall, where I spent five years of substance-free nights, was still where it was before, as was Champlain Valley Hall, where I had just as many years of not-that-useful English classes.  The bittersweet thing, though, was that the people who'd made my college experience better than I could've hoped for were long gone. They've scattered to places like Buffalo, Saratoga Springs, Clifton Park, Burlington, and others, and the campus wasn't the same without them. New people are there now, praising God, sweating through ten-page papers, going back for seconds at the dining hall, and standing in line at the financial aid office. College is a hell of a time; you step out from underneath your parents' wings for the first time, experience things and meet people you never would've expected to, and if all goes well, you end up with a degree, years of student loans to pay back, and a Facebook full of lifetime friends. But eventually, the ride's over and you and your friends must move on. Enjoy it while you can, because when it's over, it's over. | | |
| "Thank God it's over," I said after exiting the late-model Chevrolet, just a couple blocks from downtown Burlington. It was an atypical summer day; the sun was shining, the birds were singing, and the hippies were stinking - and I'd just survived a very typical ordeal at church. Forty minutes of aimless waiting around after the end of church, to be exact. Church in Vermont, at least for this carless evangelical, is a unique, fail-fail proposition. Option A involves warming a pew with an un-likeminded crowd that doesn't necessarily take the Bible as gospel truth, but can't bear to sleep in on Sunday mornings. To choose Option B is to spend a chunk of Saturday afternoon and evening calling between one and six phone numbers on a list, in hopes of getting an answer at the moment - and a ride on Sunday morning... and then to spend many agonizing, hour-sized minutes after the end of the service, waiting for a ride back to civilization (the introvert in me simply won't hear of jumping into hundreds (or tens) of random conversation clusters, so don't even go there). So where have I been all summer? Watching YouTube videos (there's just something about a girl with a guitar that makes me smile every time), slogging through my computer classes, planning my Great Escape from Vermont, and studying for my exams. Oh, and researching ways to deepen my voice. Without getting into the gruesome details, it ain't a voice I'm proud of. There are breathing exercises, chemical methods, and there's even a guy who's got the non-drug market cornered. I can't tell if he's an honest salesman or an honest charlatan, but the guy's everywhere! I was in Montreal for a weekend (as per my last entry); I was here, studying for some computer exams and wriggling my way out of others, and God willing, as of September 26th, I will no longer be here in Burlington. I've bought an Amtrak ticket, packed up half my stuff and shipped it out, and I'm winding down my B-town affairs - just as the college students returned and woke this town up again! Starting Sunday the 27th, I'm gonna have a lot of churchin' to catch up on; and I'll be using this:  | | |
| Aaand this little entry was originally tapped out at 7:30 Sunday night while waiting for a Montreal city bus. Huzzah, my phone can do more than take pictures and access the internet!Jeez, I'm forgetful these days. I tapped this one out over a month ago and forgot to post it. Argh. Better late than never, naw'm sayin'?
"I'm sitting in class and all I hear is 'bloop-bloop-bloop' from you chatting on Instant Messenger all night," my freshman roommate, The Jock, told me one afternoon, back in Ye Olde College Days. Nevermind that his dragging and nagging me to drink ensured that I'd be a teetotaler until the age of 23. "Jeff, you gotta chill out with that computer," my sophomore year roommate, The DJ, told me one evening the following year. "I'm falling asleep in class." I tried with every bone in my body not to laugh, but an involuntary guffaw flew out all the same. Nevermind that he'd sometimes wake from a dead sleep to take a swig of the Mountain Dew under his bed.
I don't believe in karma, but I do believe that I've paid for that in full. At the rock-bottom price of $20 CDN for the night. At a hostel (which shall not be named) in Montreal on Saturday night, oh I paid. Because I had no laptop or nightlife connections, 3am Sunday morning found me tossing and turning on a bed in an open hallway while an upstanding gentleman with a private room brushed his teeth and kept the water running in the nearby kitchen sink. After his buddy did the same. While they lingered in the room, with the light blaring and the door wide open. Before a couple in another private room took a long, lingerous - and talkative - shower, BEFORE leaving the bathroom door wide open with the lights blazing. Honestly, I'm a live-and-let-live guy, and I wouldn't've cared if they were making their 5-year plans and sauteeing a steak in there (though I might've asked for some). Just, for the love of Teedy Ruxpin, TURN OFF THE LIGHT WHEN YOU'RE DONE!!!
After that, I gave up trying to sleep, and retreated to the computer (praise the Lord for the internet!) in the main room. The computer and I got along fine, notwithstanding the lack of light (there were people sleeping nearby here, too), and the strange Francophone keyboard. Not too many differences, but there was a é where the comma should've been. Other than that, it was all good.
I did eventually get to sleep, and ended up napping on buses and Metro cars all over Montreal that afternoon.
So, old roomies, if you're reading this, rest assured that I have learned my lesson. Next time, I'll pay the extra three bucks to stay at a hostel with doors. . | | |
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